my.attempt.
what’s another word for indifference?
you deserve at least that
another word.
Out of all the thousands
millions, billions, trillion, ga-zillins
i’ve written for you, about you, to you
without you, how did i ever do this without you
The pen can’t find the page
and my heart just can’t deal with the rage
18,19 almost 20
and a broken heart
shitty snobby college student
studying isn’t the only thing on my mind
more like the way your hands felt
more like the way your eyes…
they always shined
no matter what
this attempt at reclaiming former glory
is going by the wayside
i’m deteriorating into shit
taken aback by all of it
all of this
you’ve gotta get the bad words out
before the good ones come
and i just hope i can hang on
for when that time shows up
